my life is LOVED <3

2008-02-25T23:56:00.001+08:00

PEOPLE! i've changed my URL to

http://wendy-mylifeisloved.blogspot.com

RELINK ME! (:

2008-02-25T22:23:00.002+08:00

disappointed.
but nevertheless,
i still have other great friends. (:

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!

IM ABUSED BY NICHOLAS KANGG!
wth.
=.=

oh. AND IM INNOCENT OKAY!
NOT STUPID!
just that im not polluted.
THATS ALL!
so i am not stupid.
im actually smartttttt! (:

lalalalalas.

realised its not good to be intiative.
maybe its better to sit back. (:

awwwwwwww.

this is why i hate about blogggggg.
=.=

2008-02-24T22:27:00.002+08:00

suddenly,
im on the verge of crying.

i miss all my css friends,
esp LINGjiagongzhu! <3

duno if its fate or wad.
i ended up at sajc alone.

all my great friends of css,
esp my bestie,
went to other schools.
='(

ARGHHHHHHHHHH!

i've to learn to be independent.
no bestie to rely on alrdy. =(

AND I HATE THIS!

esp this year,
when everything is so different for me.
life has changed,
everything and everything.
all so different.
so helpless.

yet i have to face it.

ARGHH!

i seriously miss those times, my dear friends.
love you guys to bits and pieces.
my dearest clique,
and my dearest class.

in four-one,
i love the unity in us,
i love the fun we had,
and the thrill we had secretly eating at the back of the class,
hiding all our tibits under the desks.
i love the cam-whoring sessions,
and the few guys taking videos of our spastic actions.
we're the history of css,
being so not nerdy as the first class!
HAHAHAS.

the big bullies,
awww,
wai khit, hao cheng and jiarong,
who never fail to bully me. =.=
but thanks for being great friends,
who know when to play,
and when to put a fullstop.
thank you,
for cheering me up when i cried.
i'll never forget all the words u guys said.
(:

and my great great little wonderful girl,
kenghwee! (:
u know, i always love you.
and i'll always be there when u need me.
hahas.
i guess i dun have to say much for u,
cose u know it all alrdy. (:
if not i will have to write a 1000 pages essay! =/

and not forgetting meiling, yuling, liping, and...amanda! (:
i seriously miss all of you!
though now i may not have much time to spend with u all,
but u know i wun ever forget you guys!
the wonderful girls who gave me strengths! (:

and the class's jokers.
akash and wensong!
i miss those days in class with u people!
u guys never fail to bring laughters to everyone. (:

and albert!
hahahas! omg!
:P u know wad im gonna say.

every 40 people in four-one plays a part in my life,
and thanks for the footprints u guys left.
(:

i guess i'll have to accept it.
life is all about meeting different people,
and leaving each other.

keep in contact!
its my honour to know u people.
and i'll just hope we'll all meet again in the future!

once for all,
all 4-1. (:

2008-02-24T14:07:00.002+08:00

HOHOHOHOHOS!

EUGENE THAM OWES ME AN ICE CREAM!
JENSEN OWES ME TWO GREEN APPLES!

woots!
i will grow fat!
=/

but i dun mind more ppl owing me! :P
lalalalals.

I LOVE FOODDDDDD! :DDD
yummy!

2008-02-23T23:51:00.003+08:00

okay.
i really duno wads happening to me this year.
since i broke up in january,
my friendster and msn have been growing.
friendster, from 200plus friends,
now got 388 friends.
everyday got around 8 people adding me.
and guess wad!
msn also!
and i have been deleting and blocking those people.
i didnt even bother to talk to them luh!
wad the hell.
im seriously damn frustrated now!
and this year,
today is the 2nd time i got stalked.
and now is only february.
january i got one,
february i got one.
DUN TELL ME EVERY MONTH I WILL GOT STALKED ONCE!?
wad the hell.
SERIOUSLY!
god, please stop playing a fool on me
this is not fun.
this is freakin scary.
my heart almost popped out!
my heart is still beating damn fast now luh!
just stop all this luh.
PLEASE!
i am a girl! and i feel damn insecure now!
with all those idiots coming in my life.
wth.

FRUSTRATED!

2008-02-23T23:32:00.003+08:00

WTH!
WTH!
WTH!
WTH!
WTH!
WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

seriously! THIS IS FREAKING SCARY!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BASTARD!

THIS IS THE FORTH TIME I GOT STALKED IN MY LIFE!
okay, if im not wrong.
HAHAHS!
AND SECOND TIME THIS YEAR!
WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH!
this is seriously IRRITATING!

i was like on the train home.
then this guy came into the train.
he stood in front of me
AND KEPT STARING AT ME!
then okay, i thot i was like
maybe think too much or wad.
HE FOLLOWED ME OUT WHEN I CHANGE TRAIN AT JURONG EAST!
okay, nvm.
i tried to walk to another cabin.
so i walked very fast.
WHO KNOWS HE WALKED WITH ME TOO!
BEHIND ME SOMEMORE!!!
=.=
and then when the train came,
i was like waiting for him to go in first,
then i board.
but he waited for me!
wth!
so i stood at the side there,
AND HE STOOD IN FRONT OF ME!
AND CONTINUE STARINGGG!!
and nvm! FINE!
after i got to bukit batok,
i alighted and walked super fast!
then i walked walked walked,
almost running,
to the interchange and lined up for the bus.
GUESS WHAT!
HE LINED UP BEHIND ME!!!!!!!!!!!
WTH WTH WTH WTH!
i didnt know wad to do.
he is damn scary.
FREAKING IDIOT!
and when i board the bus,
sat down at one of the seats.
HE SAT BESIDE ME!
AND CONTINUE STARINGGG!
WTH WTH WTH!
okay. fine!
NEVERMIND!
my mum called,
and i called her to come down to fetch me.
then when my bus reached my stop,
i alighted and ran to my dad.
that guy freaking ran away also lah!
then my dad was like searching for him.
i was pointing and pointing for him.
then that guy came back,
and walked across the road to wait for the bus
back to the interchange.
WTH!
WTH!
WTH!
WTH!
THIS IS SERIOUSLY!
WHAT THE HELLL!!!!!
omg!

im damn scared now.
as in YES!
IM SCARED!
=((

shit! i need a bodyguard.
hahahas! =/

i cant believe everything that is happening to me now.
my life is seriously damn unexpecting.
and this isnt a good thing.

2008-02-22T22:23:00.002+08:00

i'll be myself.
and i AM myself.
(:

this is me,
accept it or leave it. :P

i dun have to act like a gentle girl,
nor do i have to act like anyone else.

i am WENDY.
and WENDY is me.
(:

2008-02-22T22:18:00.002+08:00

undetectable heartbeats;
unexpressed words;
unbelievable lines;
life is just a movie - expect the unexpected

everyone plays a role in my movie,
including you. (:

your actions and words are an irony.

i feel like a silly girl.

2008-02-21T19:58:00.001+08:00

i wana appeal to acjc!
should i?

let nature takes its course.

2008-02-21T14:46:00.001+08:00

learn to accept.
life goes on.

:D

2008-02-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

i dun understand whatever u mean.
and i dun understand whatever u feel.

2008-02-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

i just deleted my contacts.
and they are mainly those people i blocked.
whatever.

ahhh.
im damn sad yuan chun isnt here with us in sajc.
well, today is kinda boring.
the orientation kinda sucks.
yea, luckily i got jessica with me.
if not i rather bang the wall.
=.=

had mass dance.
lols!
and its like couple dance!?!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
damn funny.
i was like laughing when im dancing.
you would never want to have a partner like me.
cose i will only laugh and laugh.
=.=
ohhhh.
and guess who's my partner!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
that stupid dinosaur!!!!
omg, damn funny dancing with him lah!
well well.
i think some girls will be damn jealous.
HAHAHAHAS!
cose some dinosaur got like so many girls likeeee.
eh.
but i dun care.
:P

damnn tired after a day.
went out with classmates to eat dinner at vivocity.
ended up only me, magdalene and nicholas eating
at the chicken rice shop.
hahas! damn funny again
=.=
everytime went out with them,
i will end up in laughters.
:)
love you guys!

ahhhh..
but yuan chun not with us le!
=(((

i may be appealing out,
cose i scared in sajc,
i will have too much fun,
and neglect my studies.
=/

you'll never predict every tmr,
so do it while you still can,
say it or you regret.

2008-02-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

look who's the freaking loser,
who only knows how to scold me!
wadeva!
i cant be bothered with your monkey behaviour!
get out of my sight you asshole!

i cant stand this anymore.
this is irritating.

i got so much to tell you,
but can i?

2008-02-19T21:44:00.002+08:00

PRESENTING!08S09!!!!!

2008-02-19T20:45:00.005+08:00

went out with my classmates today. (:
YUAN CHUN! IM GONNA MISS U!! =((
ohh. before that. i went back to css.
collected yearbook with girlfriend! (:
OHH!
MRS ABDULLA DOESNT RECOGNIZE ME!!!
angry angry! HOW CAN!
hahas! she says becose im with contacts.
=.=
and mrs yeo was like saying,
'you are damn slim and sexy'.
is that a compliment?!
or is it an insult?!
HAHAHAS!. *shrugs*
awww. im gonna miss everyone like hell!
IM LIKE SEPARATED WITH GIRLFRIEND!
WTHHHH!!! =((((
nvm, we can still be close yea? :)
ohh. and i met christieee at bugis.
talked a lot, and chatted...
blah blah. hahas!
it was like kinda fun and nice to talk like dis.
we should have more!
and ya!!
met twin at parkway parade!
wahhh. she treated us a drink each wor!
hahas! :) thank you twin!
ohh. and we talked and chatted.
hahas! so fun lahh!
then zi lian in the toilet!
HOHOHOS!

my girlfriend! in my school toilet! hahas! im gonna miss u like HELL!

zi lian time! (:

escalator! (:

SPASTIC! =/

POSE! (:

okay. this looks like the same pose. ahhas! =/

blehh.

pretty prettaye! :P

whoooo.

MUACKS TO OUR FRIENDSHIP! (:

a crush,

but with no chance,
becose someone else appeared..

this is the hardest goodbye..

2008-02-19T09:50:00.001+08:00

IM SOOOO HAPPPYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM BACK, SAJC! (:

2008-02-19T00:05:00.001+08:00

i'm happy in sa,
i dun wana end this..

2008-02-18T22:14:00.003+08:00

tired.

moodless! arghh! =/

its okay. tmr will be better day.

you'll scare me off.
really.

oh. decided to quit tuition.
that boy is irritating.

i wouldnt want to take the first step.
but,
are you willing to try?

2008-02-17T22:59:00.010+08:00

OMG! today is FUN! (:
hahas! went to zhang lao shi's house to bai nian,
as well as to celebrate her belated birthday! (:
we bought like some stuffs from the body shop
as a gift to her.
and went all the way to yishun to her hse.
(: HAHAHAS!
we were really damn ZI LIAN!
took sooooo MANY PHOTOS CAN!
oh well.
when we reached her house,
the guys and some girls played board games,
and then some other girls including me
and zhang lao shi started to make jiao zi!!!
HAHAHAS!
ITS MY FIRST TIME!
and i was like,
PLAYING WITH IT!
i came up with weird shapes
and they even say that my jiao zi
looked like curry puff instead.
if not will be like wad,
ROTI PRATA!
HAHAHAHAHAHS!
ehhhhhhhh.
dun laugh.
its actually very nice one okay!
:P
oh yahh.
the first time was like,
a failure.
HAHAHAS! it wasnt that bad lah.
but just that the "skin" too thick.
then after that,
it turns out quite nice.
and me! who doesnt eat jiao zi,
or didnt even eat before,
tried them.
AND IT WAS DAMN NICE!
hahas!
of course, I MAKE ONE!
erhem...
HAHAHAHAS!
PROFESSIONAL WENDY IS PRO OKAY!
:PPPP
and yea,
we started to play around with the flour.
hahahs! cose i got like nth better to do,
so i used the flour and smashed it on yuling's face,
then we all started playin.
in the end everyone becomes MAO LIAN!
DAMN FUN LAHHHH!!!
HAHAHAHAS! :PPPPP
ohh yah! i tried it on zhang lao shi also! :P
then yea,
we were like watching the photos they took
on her wedding day last year.
DAMNNNNNN NICE LUH!.
as in ya..
and memories flow back.
hahas! really very sweet. (:
ohhh. and zhang lao shi gave us all a BIG ANGBAO.
and we were supposed to split among ourselves.
SO FUNNY CAN!
FIRST TIME I SEE PEOPLE GIVE A BIG ONE TO SHARE!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
ohh. and we took many many random photos,
and were damn silly.
BUT yet,
it was sooo fun!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!
ESPECIALLY MY BESTIE KENGHWEE!
AND NOT FORGETTING MEILING! (:

HMT PEEPS! (: WOOOTS!

oh. can u even believe my teacher collects dolls!!! hahas! damn eerie! omg!

UNGLAM POSE! HAHAHAHS!

THIS IS EVEN MORE UNGLAM CAN!

L.O.V.E

ORANGES! LOOK AT OUR STUPID ACTIONS!

AHHH! YUMMY!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAS! FLOUR SMASHING!

OKAY. this is like a nicer one.

POSE! EVERYONE CHEESEEEEE!

HAHAHAHAS! I HEREBY DECLARE IM A LES!!!!!!

TALK no evil, HEAR no evil, SEE no evil!

OMG! LOOK AT OUR PRETTY FACES! HAHAHAS!

HAHAHS! DAMN SPASTIC RIGHT! =/

DAMN DAMN DAMN UNGLAM!

THIS IS WAD I DID TO HER! NICE RIGHT!

OKAY! they were trying to smash the flour at me!!! THIS IS SO UNGLAM!

the others playing and eating our jiao zi!

ANOTHER UNGLAM POSE! OMG!!!!

OUR JIAO ZI! before its cooked. (:

MY FIRST SUCCESSFUL BETTER-LOOKING-JIAO-ZI! HAHAHAS!

THIS IS WAD I DO WHEN IM BORED! HAHAHS! seen any heart shape jiao zi!?!?

im sooo creative right! :P SWEET SHAPE ONE LEH!

AFTER BEING COOKED!YUMMY!

OKAY! this is so OUT OF SHAPE! HAHAHAHS! MY HEART JIAO Zi!!!!!

LOOK AT HOW PROFESSIONAL WENDY IS! COME ON! :P

TADA! THE FOUR SHI FU!

HAHAHAS! WE BO LIAO GO BOMBARD ZHANG LAO SHI'S NOTICE BOARD!

oh well. im lazy to upload other photos alrdy.
OMG!
AND ALL THE PHOTOS ARE DAMN
UNGLAM AND SPASTIC!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!
:PPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
hahahas!
FINE!
TILL THEN! :D

OH SHIT! IM DAMNNNN HIGH!
=/

I LOVE U MY GIRLFRIEND! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!!!!!

2008-02-17T02:34:00.002+08:00

i've got nothing to do.
so i decided to blog.
like again.
ahhas!

anyway!
I DIDNT KNOW SO MANY PPL DISLIKED HIM!
like, saw his face,
then kan ta bu shuang.
just like dat.
HAHAHAS!
hmmm...

actually.
i didnt expect myself to recover so fast.
HAHAHAS!
ang chuang yang that time
like only 2wks!
I SAD FOR A MONTH!
now like.
not even a month.
im like.
okay alrdy.
HAHAHAHAS!
=/
thats a good thing.
i wun think about him.
:P

maybe becose someone else
managed to touch my heart
at the point of time
when i thot that
all guys are useless
and disappointing.
:)

but,
i think friends are better to be.
so,
i didnt tried to be close,
or do wadeva thing.
becose,
im afraid it might just be a substitute.
yea.

haiya!
actually its nth.
just purely,
got that slight feeling only.
(:

lalalalalalalas!

im happy with my life alrdy.
i've got great friends.
=)

and im still young.
there's still a long way to go.
this is just..
a preview,
to begin with.
the movie has yet to start.

2008-02-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

[Verse 1]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

[Verse 2]
(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight]
(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

2008-02-16T23:47:00.001+08:00

hahas.
just went out to watch ah long jia lao da.
(:
actually, its super lame.
i couldnt even laugh when everyone's laughing!
but, at some point of time,
its indeed funny lah.
not that bad afterall.
hai shi chang jiang qi hao
and kungfu dunk nicest!
(:

i think i'll just give up.
:P

2008-02-16T19:07:00.005+08:00

08s09<3

08S09 IS LOVED! (:

yuan chun, mag and me!

twins!

HUGGING PILLAR!

I LOOKED EMO! hahas! =.=

WADS THIS KRYSTAL!

christie loves to take candids! =.=

BOOS! im in st nicks! =P

2008-02-16T17:22:00.002+08:00

oh my god!
oh my god!
oh my god!

IRRITATING!

i think this year i just got those wad,
lan tao hua!

=.=

STOP IT OR I BECOME LES!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!

guys are just irritating.
tsk tsk! :P

*don't come and bian me.
HAHAHAHAS!

anyway!
i've got a great news to break here.

I SLEPT FOR 15HOURS!
HAHAHAHAHAHAS!
i cant even believe it myself!
i could have slpt longer.
but my mama damn noisy.
she kept pestering me to wake up.
then i woke up le she ownself go slp.
THEN I GOT NTH TO DO!
=.=

nevermind.

IM SOOOO GONNA LOOK FORWARD TO MON AND TUE!
REALLY LOVE 08S09 A LOT A LOT!
=((((

life is about meeting and separating.
its our destiny and fate to become a class.
even if its for a month plus only.
i'm glad we're once a class.
and to know every single one of you.
like even the king of city, (HAHAS)
its really an honour.
i'll remember everyone of you,
and remember me too!!! HAHAS! :P

at first i disliked our class.
but now,
i love it like hell!
thank you 08S09,
for giving me all those memories.
cheers to our friendship!
may it lasts FOREVER!
pls pls pls!
KEEP IN CONTACT K!
:D

and yahh!
our clique must like meet every week
AT LEAST!
remember our deal?
HAHAS! :D

love you guys lotsss!
08s09 <3

hahas! if i ever dun get into acjc.
i dun think i will appeal back.
=/
sorry wor bestie,
u can appeal to sajc TOO!
ITS FUN! hahas! :)
and yea.
i even promised ben and jon im going acjc
to join them.
HAHAS.
if i dun get in,
then...
i'll break the promise.
HAHAS. =/
oops!

i dun dare to express my feelings...

2008-02-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

i have a sudden crave for pizza.

=.=

2008-02-15T23:35:00.002+08:00

had a class outing today.
hahas! actually lots of things to say about.
but too bad im lazy today.
i'll just say briefly then. (:

the times we had,
though not long or short,
but i really had fun knowing all of you.

sadly, we have to leave one another.

oh my god!
i'll really miss u guys if i ever leave
=(

actually,
today i was a bit emo,
becose i couldnt bear all of u.
i hope i cant get into acjc now.
hahahs! =/
so i can stay with u guys.
(:

HAIS.

and and!
our class guys damn IRRITATING!
especially that NICHOLAS!
=.=
damn ti ko bei!
hahas! not literally lah.
but i just called him that. :P
oh yah! stop laughing at me!
not funny not funny.
its not funny!!!!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
=.=
big elephant bully!
DINOSAUR!
hahahs!!! =P

but i feel good tgt with them.
laughing and laughing.
(:

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
and IM NOT DUMB!
im how SMART can!
=.=

i'll really miss u people.
thank you all,
for adding colours into my life.
(:

08S09 IS LOVED!

2008-02-14T20:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! :D

hahas. though it wasnt a fruitful day,
but i really feel damnnn blessed being single.
:)

i found back the feeling i used to have when i was single.

i was happy for myself.
i really let go.

no more feelings for him.
absolutely none.
i really treat him as a stranger.

hahas!
actually i knew this few days ago alrdy.
but today,
i can confirm it.

watched ps i love you.
it was nice.
really.
i slept though.
HAHAS!
becose i was toooo tired!
but but, it was really very nice and touching.
:)

oh. thanks people for all those presents.
so sorry. hadnt had time to prepare for you all.
=/

lalalalalalas.

you know,
i feel nothing when i saw couples on the streets now.
instead,
i feel blessed i'm single.

the feeling i have is weird.
i never knew i can open this door once again.
perhaps,
its just way back into love.

暧昧

2008-02-14T00:52:00.001+08:00

weird.

wads with me?

don't think too much.
HAHAS. :)

maybe its just a false alarm.

2008-02-13T22:43:00.003+08:00

i'm not good at words.
neither am i good at expressing myself.

maybe,
you shouldn't wait.
hahas,
you've got more chances when you got into a new JC.
:)

andddd.
XXX
sorry, but i'm not suitable for you.
and,
sorry,
i ignored you today in school.
it was on purpose.
i didnt want to give you any hope.
really dui bu qi..

AHHH!
so frustrated.
i didnt mean to hurt anybody...

sorry friends!
i couldnt accompany you all on valentine day.
as in, i cant accompany you guys for the whole day.
becose i've got other commitments.
really sorry.
hope you guys understand!

i feel real bad.

sorry.

AHHH!

and please, PLEASE!
strangers,
STOP ADDING ME IN BOTH FRIENDSTER
AND MSN IF YOU DUN KNOW ME!
arghh!
i'm irritated.
i hate all those people.
i think they're just desperate or what!
WHATEVER!
just leave me alone luh!
grrrrrr....

nevermind.
lets talk about good things.

today, is a laughter day.
it was so fun going back PRIMARY SCHOOL!
hahahas!
don't be jealous.
i really had fun.

you know,
this is the first time i really laugh from my heart,
since i broke up.

LOVE YOU GUYS!

2008-02-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

my life was perfect,
with great friends and a great bf.
until i broke up,
i sank into depression.

i never knew we would ever broke up.
i thought we would really last forever.
cose' i really loved him.
and he was really giving in to me,
almost everything.

it was the trust in between us,
the lack of trust,
was the main problem that caused everything.

and so, we broke.
he needs to fly.
he wants to soar up high..

sometimes, i really regretted.
i wanted him back.
i missed him so much.
but i can do nothing.

naturally,
sweet memories always flash back.

until this malaysia trip i had.
i thought it through carefully.
every single bits and pieces.
i thought,
maybe i should let go.

i did.

but, honestly speaking,
i do miss him at times.
and wana go back to those sweet times.

till then, i thought life was better for me.
at least i learnt how to let go.

then a different story came in.

maybe god wanna play a fool on me.
but i'm not up for the game.
really..

i just broke up,
and im not ready to start another relationship yet.
sorry.
i hope you guys understand.

all the while,
i havent change.
you may hate me now,
cose u think im tarnishing your reputation,
but,
i'm not.
and i would not.
im disappointed,
to think u even thought i was such a girl.
i was sad,
to think u even misunderstood me.
afterall,
you should know me well,
after the 8 months we had been tgt.
i know,
whatever i said now,
you will think its all rubbish,
and you wouldnt care.
but i made myself clear alrdy.
i've got nothing more to say.

nevertheless,
i need to say both a thank you,
and a sorry to you.

2008-02-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAS!
today is fun! xD

went out with my friend to plaza sing.
saw my sa friends, and they were like..
PON STAR!
hahhas! yea. i pon-ed sch. :P
ohh. and we ate mos burger.
chit chat chit chat.
and seriously, he isnt what i thought he was.
hahahs! in fact, he is soo different!
okay, forget about it.
and yea, went to buy his slippers.
HAHAHAS! AT NUM!
ohh. thats the place i told him it was for gays.
HAHAHAHAS! =/
yea, it really is.
but no worries, that doenst apply to slippers.
:P

ohhhhhhhh.
and we walked all the way to orchard from plaza sing.
HAHAHAHS! just becose i wana buy a shade.
=.=
bleahhhhhh.
but sadly, i cant find any i like.
im very picky u know! :P

ohh. and we decided to watch a movie.
SO LAST MIN!
luckily we got there on time.
hahahas!
AND WE WATCHED KUNGFU DUNK!
SUPER DUPER FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
its really nice.
you should really watch it!
its damn damn funny.
and towards the ending,
its kinda touching.
but i didnt cry,
although i almost.
but i tell myself not to,
BECOSE IM WEARING CONTACTS!
lols. =.=
so troublesome to wear actually.
but nvm. =/

ohh. and we rushed back home.
cose i got tuition at nite!
and i was surprised the mother actually gave me red packet.
i was like, HUH?!
cose i didnt expect,
and very bu hao yi si to take.
but in the end i just like,
oh okay.
hahas.

chatted with my girlfriend all the way from bus stop
to my home.
and till now,
i havent even studied maths!!!
DIE! =/
tmr got maths test.
super sian can!
dun even feel like going to sch.
actually, i go sch cose of my friends.
WE ARE A BUNCH OF FUN PPL!
HAHAHAHAHAHAS!

life's fun!
my camwhoring is back!

maybe i should quit being zi lian.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!
ehh. very long nvr zi lian le okay!
nan de today got the mood to zi lian.
shall take more! :P
ohh. and worse still.
my mum was nagging at me to eat my dinner.
then im like taking zi lian photo.
then she was like,
STOP BEING ZI LIAN AND EAT YOUR DINNER!
=.=
well. i continued, until im satisfied,
then i go eat my dinner.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS!
lalalalalals.

u know, its better to love myself.

2008-02-10T23:48:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dun you guys missed me??!?!
hahas! :P

ohhh. went malaysia and yea,
so sorry, couldnt reply to any of your messages.
(if u ever smsed me.) =.=

anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i'm so glad i got many many red packets.
ITS TIME TO SPEND MONEY!
hahahs!! :)

ohh. and throughout the whole new year,
i was gambling and eating and gambling and eating...
NON-STOP!
guess i went super fat!!! :(
played mahjong with my pretty cousins and family.
then played cards etc etc.
i lost quite a lot in singapore. =(
BUT! i won in malaysia!!
hahahas! you know, luck doesnt always stay by your side.
it takes turn. :P

love my pretty clothes to bits and pieces!

hahahas!
i was damn happy when i receive compliments
from my relatives in malaysia lah!
okay. out of point.
BUT I WAS VERY HAPPY!
=.=

i've got cute little cousins!
hahahs! how i wished they were mine!
THEY ARE REALLY AMAZING I TELL YOU!
so young already know how to do so many things.
i bet i werent like that when i was young.
hahas! but at least i was as cute as them. :P
ERHEM!! HAHAHAHAS!
okay. shut up wendy.
i shall keep my skin thin.

oh well. this new year wasnt as wonderful.
but at least its enjoyable.
i was like playing and playing to keep myself occupied.
away from all those wild stupid silly thoughts.
and at least in malaysia,
i can like isolate myself for a while.
hahahas!
but, sometimes,
somethings just cant be avoided.
memories kept flashing back,
and wild thoughts will haunt me whenever i got nothing to do.
even if its only a second.
well. i'll just let it be.
hahas. i can do nothing also.
its the mind and heart.
i cant control.
relatives will ask, how's me and him.
and i will be like, oh, broke up.
then they will be like, dun be sad lah,
you're still young... still got plenty of chances
blah blah blah.
of course i know that, as in, im still young and so.
but sometimes,
even if all my friends and relatives come to me,
even if everyone come and console me,
tell me not to be sad and so,
i know that its not easy to do so.
its always easier to be said than done.
but well, no one can do anything,
except time.
so just let it be ba. =)
but im really really thankful,
and appreciate all my friends' efforts
and encouragements.
thank you all. =)
hahas. and both my male cousins in malaysia that im closer to
have girlfriends already.
one younger than me by a year,
one older than me by a year.
and they are real sweet boyfriends.
hahas! u'll wish that u had such bf
if u saw what they did!
crazy lo!
one early in the morning drive car all the way to malacca
to fetch his gf.
and u know malaysia is how much bigger than singapore.
the travel time took 2hrs!
imagine him driving there every morning to fetch her,
come back to his house,
then drive her back to malacca again at night,
and then come back again.
goshh! he's mad.
hahas! but actually, its the love that made him mad.
so its dammn sweet.
then the other one drive motor.
=.=
hahhaas! they all very ^&*#%#* one.
so good lah!!! don't even have license can anyhow drive liao.
i also want can! i wana try motor!!!=/
i shall learn next time i go back again.
its FUN! :P
okay okay. back to him.
the other one is mad.
meet her girlfriend every midnight.
=.=
hahas. and yea, they both really love their gf
A LOT!
from the way they treat their gf.
they really cherish them a lot.
and they both love their gf more than they are loved by them lah!
hahahs. thats sweet lah.
but not very good.=/

OKAY! WHY AM I TALKING ABOUT THIS!?!

nevermind.
i guess im too carried away.
hahahhas!

oh. tmr i declare i pon school.
=/
i guess i need rest.
too tired.
everyday gamble till 4am for consecutive days
will die u know!
choy choy choy.

AHHHH! this week is a busy week!
its kinda,
good and bad. =)
but nevermind, at least i wun be lonely.
=)

i'm glad i've got nice friends.
and im starting to miss my sa friends.
ahhhh! what if i get into acjc.
=(
i will miss them like hell!
and what if i cant get into acjc.
i will miss keng hwee like hell!
arghhh! this is mad.
=((

i made three wishes this new year.
and it will definitely come true!
i'm sure it will. :)

have been thinking through when im in the long bus ride.

sometimes,
somethings, no matter how much u want it,
you will never have it,
no matter how much you have done.
sometimes,
somethings just come to you,
even if u did nothing.

now i understand.
so i'll stop doing everything.
because its useless.
you always got the wrong meaning.
its useless,
because you always don't care.
so, i'll stop doing anything,
and everything.

life's lovely now.
at least i don't have to worry about you.
don't have to be jealous over those bitches,
don't have to be angry over things,
don't have to be sad over you,
don't have to be disappointed by what you did,
don't have to be afraid you might be snatched away from those sluts,
don't have to care if you scold vulgarities,
don't have to cry if you betrayed me,
don't have to try to change your bad habits,
don't have to try to change you into a perfect guy.

what's love?
maybe u duno.
or perhaps, i duno as well.
but i define it as,
love is about accepting the weaknesses of a person,
and not overlook it.
if you love a person,
you will try to help him, and change him into a better person.
not that he's bad,
but you just want to perfect him.
love is not about the looks,
its about feelings.
no couples can get along well,
you'll have to give and take.
love, is about the trust.
once you lost it,
its hard to gain it back.
love, is about being faithful,
and not flirt.
love, is about the protection,
to feel secure with him.
love, is really amazing.
if you know how to love,
and be loved.

too bad i'm out of love now,
but at least,
im glad that im once in it.
:)

2008-02-06T14:44:00.000+08:00

i'm utterly speechless.
help me please.

its so wrong.
wrong.
and wrong!

no way.
i tell myself this isnt it.
but its just like this.

i'm dying of depression.

i really miss those days.
i really miss ~~you~~..

16days since.
waiting.

so what?
you wont come back.
you're happy with them now.

i'm silly.

she loves him.
i'm out of the game.

2008-02-05T19:59:00.000+08:00

wahahahs!

im gonna give a long post today. :P

okay. i shall start from ytd,
since i was so emo ytd that i wrote nothing that happened.
hahas. ><

went kbox with my classmates and another guy in marina square.
there were me, anges, christy,kystal,
nicholas (that erhem, HANDSOME), and jia chuan. (nicholas's friend)
hahahs! nicholas was gay! :P
okay lah. actually he quite man,
only that he sometimes behave like a gay. :P
and we were laughing all the way..
HAHAHAHAS!

ohh. then me and christy walked damn fast to the kbox.
and we started singing inside.
surprisingly, nicholas can actually sing!
hahahas!
his singing sounds damn like GUANG LIANG LAH!!
his friend wasnt bad too, a bit like jay chou.
hahahs!
and christy sound like SUN YAN ZI!
okay. we seem like having some yan chang hui there,
with so many 'singers'.
LOLS.
nicholas was damn funny when he sings.
hahas! look at his expression and u will laugh man!
he is super ultra utimate 'GOT FEELING'.
lols. and he has a bad habit,
and that is lie anywhere he goes.
=.=
he think he is a mop like dat,
help to mop the floor wherever he goes.
.........................

ohh. and sadly, i have to leave at 6pm.
cause i have to go for the tuition at 8pm.
hahas. was late a bit.
but well, :P
that boy super cute!
he kept requesting for tuition on friday
when i said dun have cose of chinese new year.
then he was like, huhhhh....
HAHAHAS!
but his chinese really cannot make it.
spelling for 7 times still cannot get any words right.
=.=
AHHH! irritated.
=(

after that, met girlfriend for a little chat.
had my dinner, and passed her the money.
really feel so nice everytime i talk to her.
:)

ohhhh! today went out with my crazy twins!!!
HAHAHAHAHAS!
wendy has a twin!!! :P
her name is YUAN CHUN! :)

went orchard with her and christy.
we ate pepper lunch!
hahas! and we chatted a lot a lot!
shant tell you all.
shhhh! its bu neng shuo de mi mi! :P

then went far east!
but christy had to go and meet her friend.
AHH!.
nvm.
went around searching costumes for cosplay.
dun be mistaken, im not going for it.
hahahas! but my twin is!
:D

went suntec city to continue searching.
and we both talked a lot a lot!
DEFINITELY LAUGHED A LOT TOO!
madness!
hahahas!!!
then we came up with three bets!
WAHAHAHAHAS! I BET I WILL WIN!
and YUAN CHUN!!!
be prepared to treat me thrice!
:PP
went to eat waffle at this waffle cottage!
its damnn romantic!
if i were there with the one i love,
awwwww.
HAHAHAS! :P
but me and twin can be les too u know! :P
we took so many photos!
and even wrote something there that we were there before!

the pro writing! :P

dun try to tou pai! :P

PIG!! hahas! :P

TWIN! madness. :P

oh well. today is rather fun. :)
our class is damn bonded!
will miss them if i ever got to enter acjc.
and I DECLARE I DESPISE JC2!
whatever.
we were having a match against them for the handball during p.e
they were super violent lah!
like whatever!
they kept pushing our class people,
knocking us and banging us!
snatched our balls and scolded us!
like, the guys are super not gentleman.
girls are super bitch,
and that class is just super SCREWED UP!
come on lah.
jc2, we are just jc1 okay!
that is a friendly match,
but ended up u guys being so attitude!
come on man.
SO WHAT IF U ARE JC2?!
BIG DEAL AH!
BUTTOCK BIG ONLY!
HYMPHHHHH!
DARE TO BULLY US!
grrr!!!!!!!!
come knock down our nicholas,
hit the ball on our yuan chun's head,
AND KICK THE BALL AWAY FROM OUR CHRISTY!
so WHATEVER!
you all are just arts class,
mind you!
whatever!
pissed!

i shall stop wasting my effort scolding them.
but overall,
we girls showed our enthu side becose of this.
maybe we are so bonded tgt le,
saw our class kana bullied,
we all came tgt and went against them.
hahahas!

:) i love 08s09!
this class is so bonded. <3

15days since.
waiting.

2008-02-04T23:59:00.000+08:00

today is a sad day for me.
or rather, happy.
hahas. (:

knew that he got very close with another girl.
who is a crasher.
really wonder how they even know each other in the first place
but well, its none of my business.

was disappointed, sad, angry,
or whatever negative emotions you can name
after hearing that.

you told me you'll be single.
you told me you arent a flirt.
but everything doesnt seem so.

well. i guess i dun understand his definition of friends
and i dun understand what is he thinking about.
sometimes i even wonder,
does he still have the little bit of feeling and heart
to even care about me.

i'm free.
i told him i'll not treat him as a friend anymore.
because the way he is treating me
is equal to treating me as a stranger.

i wun change my mind again.
you may say im stubborn.
but in the first place,
you are the one who is mean.

sorry,
but i tried very hard in this relationship.
this is all i could do,
since we started together
till now that we broke.
this is the end.

if ever you regret your decision,
you may return.
i'll be waiting here...

maybe this is the last thing i can ever do for you.

meanwhile, enjoy your life to the fullest.
stay happy no matter what.
~~goodbye my dear.~~

2008-02-04T00:17:00.001+08:00

hey.

i'm happy you're enjoying your life.
perhaps.
(:

gees.
life's been good for me too.
i've great friends!
as in, my OG, class ...
and definitely KENGHWEE AND YEEPING! (:

even made new bestie in SA!
like JESSICA! (:

i'm trying not to care about you anymore.
trying not to be jealous when you're always with girls.
but still,
everything takes time.

i know i'm stupid.

hahas. ><

but u cant deny you are a flirt.
like yes, a big flirt.
everyday going out with girls.
maybe you even fell in love with another girl now.
who knows.

i'm trying not to bother.
but it takes time..

oh well.
i found out something sweet.
you once said something to your friend.
and i was surprised that u actually said such things.
but well, though its really super sweet,
we're over.

i know you love your life now.
you got all the freedom to do whatever u want.
u can flirt with girls,
go out with them,
sms them,
call them and chat at night,
go clubbing,
go have fun
and jio other girls.
but please remember something,
there's still a girl standing in the rain..
stupidly waiting for your return.

and i guess i really mean it.

2008-02-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

boos! :P

i'm sick.
sneeze. sneeze. sneeze.
thats what i'm doing throughout the entire day.
my nose's dropping off. :(
ahhh.

went out till now.
GEES!
huiying's naughty.
she made us wait for 35mins.
:(

forget it.

and then went dental.
but unfortunately,
it was closed.
=.=

whatever.

then went over to westmall to eat.
hahas. i had laksa which worsened my flu.

heck.

then train over to woodlands.
and my GIRLFRIEND got her handphone.
like, finally. hahas.
we bought the same kind of notebook.
just different species only.
HAHAS.
its really meaningful and cool.
as in, im referring to the notebooks.
:P

yawns.
was sleepy throughout,
until we suddenly became a little bit high.
u know, crazy people are like dat.
**point to girlfriend**

hahahas!
and we went orchard to pass sabrina the smocked tubes.
so funny.
i got her smocked tube from orchard.
and walked a few distance,
i get to earn 2 bucks per smocked tube.
=.=

oh. and we trained over to bugis.
was deciding wad colour to buy for my cardigen.
think and think and think.
black or yellow.
hahas! and seems like others were telling me to get yellow.
since they claimed i'm skinny,
and black made me skinnier. (if there's such word)
hahas! oh well.
i risked and chose black in the end.
cose its easier to match clothes with.
tried at some other shop when girlfriend is choosing her necklace.
AND ITS PERFECTLY ALRIGHT!
like, i dun look skinnier as i thot i might.
WEE! (:
good choice made.

ohh. i bought a huge loads of boxes of tissues.
because of my bad flu.
hahas!

then we drank coke at macs.
on the way, we saw some of our css friends.
samuel waved to me, but i didnt see.
hahas! cause i was sneezing!
sorry, u cant blame me. :P
blame my nose,
for being naughty today.
:(

ahhhhhhhhh.

tmr going out with another girlfriend.
and then og.
wahahas!

busy. busy. busy.

at least that kept me occupied.
and i won't think much.

wee! dun feel like going school.
i'm afraid of that stalker.
really.
someone pls help me.
):

today is a great day.
tmr will be better.

2008-02-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

i'm freaking cold.
if it was the past,
you would be there to give me warm.
i cant help it but,
everything reminds me of you.

yet, i promised myself not to be sad over you.
but promises are meant to be broken.
you said that before..

it really takes time.
plenty of time, i guess.

JIAYOU WENDY!

i shall keep myself busy. (:

today is a good day;
tmr will be a better day.

positive manifestation.

anyway, the little guy is cute.
at least he is guai-er today. (:
chinese spelling from 0 t0 5/6.
but, he still has more potential.
(: let me help him! hahas. :P

yawns. i'm tired.

wendy! believe you can enter acjc!
yes, i can! (:

i rather believe everything.

相信就会幸福.

2008-02-01T17:57:00.000+08:00

wtf?!? $%&^*(#(*%@

nevermind.
i told myself to forget it. (:
yea cheryl! its his loss. :P
perhaps he doesnt know how to cherish me.
**-lying to myself-**
blah. blah. blah.
hahas! who cares?
maybe i will feel better this way. (:

anyway! today was a fun day at school.
went school again! (:
AND THAT STALKER IS STILL THERE!
like wth!?
i thot its like, exactly a week i didnt go school,
and that stalker will be like gone.
but this morning when i went to school,
he was still there, hiding behind the walls under my block
and peeping if i'm out already or not!
AND THEN HE FOLLOWED ME!
FREAKING SCARY CAN! AHHH!!
i need someone to help me!
but, NO ONE COULD!
okay. its really been days.
and i duno wad to do.
nobody lives near me going to sajc too.
even if they do, i either duno them,
or they dun care me.
like, HOW!
he is like, a guy who is from yusof ishak,
wearing long pants,
duno wad sec 3,4 or even J1.
wad he want?!
i was so afraid he might steal my things,
kill me, rob me, molest me, rape me, WHATEVER!
AHHH! i dun dare go school anymore. =(

anyway. P.E was damn fun.
really! had floorball.
and i sweat A LOT!
and also i was AWARDED LOTS OF BLUEBLACKS!
thank you huh! =.=

then, after school went out with my friends.
clarissa, me and jessica had girls talk.
xavier had to go for his band again!
hahas! oh. and we bought things! (:
shhh. cant be told.
its bu neng shuo de mi mi. :P
anyway, valentine's day will be crazy.
HAHAHAHAHAHAS! :P
i told u singles have our own ways! :P

ohh ya! then was talking to jessica on the way home.
UNTIL I LOST MY WAY!
as in, ahhh. i thot i took the correct train.
in the end i took the wrong one.
and when she alighted at novena,
then i realised oh shit,
i boarded the wrong train!
GOSH! TOOK ME SO LONG TO REALISE!
seriously, stop being BLUR!!!!!!!!!!
$&(@#()#%#(

bits and pieces,
everything is in a mess now.
maybe one day you will realise,
after putting all the puzzles together.
that will be another new start. (:

fullstop.
i've got tuition later again.
boring.
that primary 3 guy is making me crazy.

2008-01-31T23:15:00.000+08:00

我曾认真试爱着一个人
他给我幸福的可能
我等我问未来何时发生
他只是给我一个吻
快乐我哭是因为你的手
曾答应带我向前走
难过我哭是因为我的手
找不到你说的以后
好眼泪坏眼泪
我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只不过在你不再爱我了以后
像坏的眼泪慢慢流
快乐我哭是因为我付出
得到你温柔的答覆
难过我哭是因为我认输
你的心永远留不住
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
好眼泪坏眼泪我都曾为你流
感动和悲伤都是理由
只希望在我不再想你了之后
有好的眼泪慢慢流
有好的笑容陪着我...

found this at billy's blog.
and i realised, its very meaningful..

yeap.
i cried enough for you..
its time i move on.
i shall erase every single bit of bad memories i had,
and leave the wonderful footsteps behind.
perhaps one day,
i'll meet my mr right.
hope you find your happiness too!
i've learn to let go.
i've learn,
that loving someone is to let him go.
that's why i'm letting you go,
because i love you.
please don't forget me,
cause i will forever remember you.
you have your freedom now,
enjoy your life,
and i know u will. (:
one day, if u ever find a girl u really love,
tell her, she's blessed.
as for me, i'll just let the love fade as time passes.

i don't hate you,
maybe i love you too much.

cheers. (:

thank you kenghwee. <3

2008-01-31T21:31:00.000+08:00

lazy to blog today.

but nevertheless, im blogging.

HAHAS. =/

oohh. today i went to crash ACJC!
okay. im supposed to rest at home.
HAHAHAS! but, i went.
and it was,
DAMN EXCITING! hahahs!!!

we hid at some random places, at the arts centre,
on the spiral staircase itself.
and we were so afraid we got spotted.
cause three of us got caught,
then left like 5 of us.
HAHAHAS!
and the p.e teacher kept walking past us,
and we were hiding like crazy!
SUPER HILARIOUS I TELL YOU!
=/

ohh. it wasnt as good as i expected.
like, SAJC facilities are much more better can!
but i prefer acjc. hahas!
and i duno why,
sajc got so many pretty gals and handsome guys,
but in acjc, its totally NONE!
okay. random. =.=

HAHAHAHS! but i still pray i can get into acjc.
with my dangerous 7 points. =(
ahhh! PLEASE!

oohh. missed sch three days.
and i missed my classmates and og. (:
did u all miss me?
PLEASE SAY YES!
hahas! :P

then after dat, met yuan chun at orchard.
FUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!
we talked a lot in macdonald.
but went kinokuniya first.
hahas! (:
NICE CHAT INDEED!
oh. i met ruby. =.=

and after that, i trained home.
halfway through i cannot take it.
i dropped off at raffles,
AND SEACRHED FOR A TOILET!
=.= HAHAHAHAHAS!
then after erhem, clearing off the bladder, :P
i went back again and took the train back to bukit batok.
wasted my money. =.=
ahhhh!
oh. and i met amanda.
caught up a lot with her today.
and she made me a card.
THANK YOU! (:
we chatted a lot too.
ahhas! it was actually nice telling everything out again.
although, i dun have much saliva.
lols. lame.
but anyway, i got my contacts. (:
WEEE! new year can start wearing le.
now cant, cose infection still not recovered.
:(
nvm. next week should be better.
i hope so. (:

oohhh! and here i am.
eating dinner while blogging.
:P

guess im too tired.

yea! going back school tmr!
(:

they said that was you,
should i believe?
you changed,
or rather you were like that all along..
i'm silly to cry here,
while you are enjoying your life there,
so happily with all your friends..
i'm really silly...

2008-01-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
you din know?
that ezekin sim VERY SLOW LEHS~!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
YA LO!
wad ezekin sim. HE EZLINK LAH!
kns. slowpoke can!
ARGH!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
hahahahah!
i transit link lehs!
hahahahaha
yea yea
so slow!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
ehh. i scrolled up
then realised u wrote a random thing
-.-
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life.
HAHAHS! COPYRIGHTED!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
i din!
WAIT WAIT

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
eh.
huh.
LOLS!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
YOU ALSO VERY SLOW LA!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
WAD TING TING!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
LIKE EZLINK!
hahahaha!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
HAHAHAHS!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
BLEHS!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
EHHHH!!
HE SLOWER LO!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
hahahhaha

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
why u suddenly said that huh?

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
BUT YOU ALSO SLOW! xD
hahaa

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
not slower than EZLINK can le!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
so what if i'm lesbian.
you believe? HAHAHAS!
><

cos you said this

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
slower than him means JIAT LUCT LIAO, cose i'll be as slow as u. cham cham.
CHEY!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
AIYO!
i where got slower than him!
IM THE FASTEST OF ALL KKS :D
hees!
YOU AUNTIE OBASAN LA!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
HAHAHAHAHAS! WAD OBASAN! YOU THEN OBIKANG!
HAHAHAHAHAS!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
OMG!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
:P

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
SO CHOU LOR!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!
GOODNESS!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
RARRRRS!
why never laugh your BUTT off!

lingSANling; 030 <3 MY RANDOM SISTER IS LOVED! (: ;; thank you. says:
dun want, later no butt CANNOT PANG SAI!

lingqiling 070 <3 ; I LOVE MY DEPENDABLE SISTER! (: says:
OMG

YOU VERY ER XIN LEHS!

HAHAHAHAS! can u believe it! thats us! :X

2008-01-30T22:52:00.000+08:00

anyway. i'm irritated by despo guys!
stop adding me on msn or friendster.
you know, i hate it.
AHHH!

2008-01-30T22:23:00.000+08:00

i'm back!

hahas. went to pass clothes to buyers,
and then send those registered mails.
gosh! i duno they cost a bomb! =/

then met my random sister! hahas!
and and we went queensway!
the bus ride took ages i tell you!
AHH! irritating!
oh. and she is super AUNTIE!
HAHAHAHAHAHAS! ><
and super rich. :P
she bought a new nike bag,
addidas water bottle,
and a pair of addidas shoes.
FREAKING RICH!
and she was bargaining like crazy.
hahas! i was laughing at her all the way. :P

after that, we went to causeway point.
we got her phone repaired,
and then went popular to buy my stationaries.
AND JUST A FEW PENS COST ME A BOMB TOO!
><
aahhh. and i cant find any file that i like. :(

then, we went to buy some food at the pasar malam.
hahas! i bought like a chicken wing and two seaweed chicken.
AND I TELL YOU!
the guy selling chicken wing one,
SUPER FLIRT! hahahs!
he tried to flirt with me.
like ARGH! =.=
i thought i dropped something,
cose i heard some noises,
as if i dropped a coin like dat.
so i went around searching,
and he was like,
aiya!! duno what he talking about also.
i also blur blur.
hahas! then i just walked off.
then he was like saying must go there hor.
or duno wad. =.=
HECK!

oh. and we took a train home.

KENGHWEE IS CRAZY!
she fa hua chi. :P
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS!

lalalalas.

BUT ITS FUN TO BE WITH HER!
thank you girl, for being by my side. (:
LOTS OF LOVES!

so what if i'm lesbian. :P
you believe? HAHAHAS!
><

and the day ends here.

yawns. im tired. (:

another day without you.
i guess i'm surviving.
but i'm missing you.
are you?

2008-01-30T14:41:00.000+08:00

wishes that come true are called miracles.
i want a miracle.

2008-01-30T13:28:00.000+08:00

bored!

i'm home, and had nothing to do, except taking orders and replying emails.
=.=
ahhhhhhhh! at this rate i will go crazy.
how i wished 2nd intake can start faster!
hahas. cause it'll be a new start for me, and a new beginning.
and i'll have everything new, including a new image!
(:

thats how i move on..

and ooh. i'll be going queensway later!
hahas! and i shall buy my stationaries etc etc.
i'll consider if i should buy my contacts later too.
cose im soo broke!
=/

valentine's day is coming.
and i had no idea who to spend it with.
if it was the past, i could have enjoyed that day.
but well, its over.
hahas! and i guess i'll be with my friends!
you know, singles have our own ways! :P
gees.

lalalalas.

08s09! please confirm kbox on friday!
yuan chun and magdalene!
if you two don't go i'll kill you.
:P
so please go. hahas!
aiya. we'll all go our separate ways after 1st intake le.
so just go okay? guai. (:

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhs!

friendster sucks big time!
and i hate strangers!
those kuku, irritating!

random. random. random.

i had a heart disease.
and it's called broken heart.
someone please cure me.

2008-01-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAS! the doctor is mad! gave me three days MC! argh!! what am i supposed to do these three days?!?! =( im bored like nobody's business can. grr! i'll miss my friends in school. hahas! 08S09 friends, DUN MISS ME TOO MUCH! hahas! =P

ahhh! im so afraid i will become blind actually. but thank goodness. the doctor said i will be okay. (: if not i'll cry to death i tell you! hahas!

oohh. AND I MET UP WITH YEEPING! love her to bits and pieces! she's really very good at words. (: how i wished i can be like her, taking things easy. talked to her about GIRLS STUFF and catch up with her. really very happy for her, for having such a great boyfriend. (: cherish him huh! (:

only when i'm down the drain,
i see which are my true friends.
thank you all, for those encouragements.
i pray for the miracle. (:

2008-01-29T17:20:00.000+08:00

i don't understand,
why all those friends around me in a relationship can last for so long,
but not us...

and i don't understand,
why we even break in the first place...

god is unfair to me as usual...

2008-01-29T13:30:00.000+08:00

ahahahahas! let me tell you something! i didnt go school today! =/
okay. and i'm bored at home now, flu-ing away. =.=
ahhhhhhhh! let me see, today i'm supposed to go out and meet chun liang for her clothes at 8pm, and then i'm supposed to meet my dear friend yeeping at jurong east too. (: hahas! so looking forward to it actually! super long time nvr see her le! (: guess we're gonna go mad later. =/
ooohh ya! meanwhile, i just woke up, like at 1.30pm. hahas! i know i'm a pig. and my eyes are swollen as usual! its hurting. grr! =/ then i've got nothing to do and came here to blog. hahas! a boring life, someone please add colours to it.. (:

ahhhhhhhhhh! i think i'm mad. don't be surprised if u ever see me in mental hospital one day. hahas! and thank you for visiting. (: anyway! i've yet to buy my stationaries and contact lens! ahh! i think i'm getting them this week, then next week will be like chinese new year, and i'll be super busy going everywhere to collect my ang bao. hahas! (: then after that will be too late, cause there will only be a week left before 2nd intakes come. ahhh! and i really hope i get into acjc. well, sa isnt a bad school, but i prefer acjc, cause its nearer my house! though i heard it isnt the right school for me, like the girls are bimbo, and the people there are super rich, clubbing and pubbing away almost every day, my seniors survived! and i guess i can too. (: hahas! you know, nothing is impossible! (:

i'm practising my positive manifestation like almost every single minute now, but it don't seems to work! okay. maybe time will show. (: and i believe it will, as long as i'm always in the positive manner! hahas! we'll see in the near future, if it really works. (:

ahhh. ya! yesterday! hahas! almost forgotten. i went for my 08s09 class outing at marina square. like again. cause i've been going there for the third time last week. supposed to meet at 11.30am at city hall, but erhem, i reached there almost 2pm. HAHAHAS! because i overslept. =/ then they were already playing pool while waiting for us. then after we reached, as in me and anges, we all decided to eat at swensens. who knows we can only enjoy the privilege of student meal at 2.30pm, but it was only 2pm. soooo! they decided to eat in subway, and i ended up having a regular drink only. hahas! i don't eat subway, never in my life! hahas! =/ then we decided to play zhong ji mi ma and the loser will choose a truth or dare. i'm super lucky, cause i never got it. hahahs! (: aiya. my og always play, then somehow u will know the tactics liao. wahahas! then we went to play bowling. ahh! its been a long time since i ever bowl, and the first few times was a missed. lols. but i striked at least once. =.= magdalene was crazy. hahas! she was how agitated because she couldnt strike. hahahas! then nas went for his training halfway through. after bowling, we played pool. ahahs! teenagers really know how to enjoy life! and it was my first time playing it, not counting the mini pool table i had in my house. =.= i learnt a bit, and manage to embarrassed myself. HAHAS! oh well. =/ after playing pool, i rushed off to meet keng hwee without paying! hahas! okay. and christy helped me pay first. (: then, we went bedok to pass clothes to a buyer, ate chicken rice and rushed back to jurong east for my tuition. ahahs! okay. i don't have a tuition, but im teaching a pri 3 guy. he's cute, but he couldnt concentrate at all. which is pretty irritating. i guessed i've to come up with ways to make him listen and remember! hahas. then, i reached home at 10plus.

08s09 is loved.

i'm beginning to feel the sense of belonging to my class. (:

the naughty girls.

you wouldn't wana see me bowl. =/

i hope i have memory lost;
so that i can forget you..
they say i'm silly,
and i admit i am.
i know there's no way i can get you out of my mind,
unless an angel appears in front of me.
and i'm waiting, i'm really waiting..
for a miracle to happen..
gain your wings and soar up high,
see the world and adventure.
maybe one day you will realise,
you have made the wrong decision.
maybe one day after seeing the world,
you will know its time to be back.
the door is always open,
to welcome you back.
i'm waiting,
because i rather be silly.

2008-01-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

they say its gonna be alright;
it just all takes time..

GUESS WHAT! i went for class outing today! hahas! and i was SOO LATE because i overslept. ahhh. and ya. my eyes are getting worse each day. i have this feeling i will go blind one fine day, and i wouldnt get to see this world again. but oh well. i'll just pray hard it wouldnt happen and get it treated SOMEDAY. hahas. its always swollen, and i duno why. maybe i cried too much.

anyway. im tired. though its my first post and i would really want to write a lot, i guess i really have to sleep. =/ i'll blog tmr about the class outing, if i feel like to. hahas. basically, i recreated my blog just to vent out everything, cause everything isnt falling right, and i don't know why..

im tired of this world;
everything isnt right - and i hate it.